i just found a friend in one of your lies, to treat me so nice. i can't believe my bones when they say so many things,they tell me i am fine,believe me i, i try. ever so sweet you make this seem
the way things go its not my fault and i'll miss, i'll miss you so good through all of those nights
we lost our way back home. ever so sweet,you baked it in cakes for me. what you left behind,
it hurts my teeth. bring in the past with the postcards you sent for me. every line, it brings me right back down. can't you see the wall you built for me? can't you see the wall you built for me?
can't you see the wall you built for me? cause we're not special,we're not special,we're not special. well i'm not special,i'm not special.

6257.4 miles...

you really think we'll survive?
yes, i have no doubt in my mind.

EEW?

[I will come to you and tell you of your many charms and you'll look at me with eyes that see and melt into each other's arms and so I come to be the one who's always standing next to you...]

happiness is...

this..

oh and this too...

...and lets not forget about this one

(mai hart gonna esplode)

ok fine

we're cute, whether you think so or not.

Jut wanna remember...

remember when i was golden?

remember this birthday?

remember when i was a lion?

remember when i was a beautiful, domestic goddess?

remember when i was fun?
remember when we danced?

remember when i got drunk with my mom and her siblings? (me either, weird)remember when I did this?
remember when i was cute and skinny? 
remember when i was classy?

I think someday these some of these pictures might make me cringe and wish I didn't always carry a camera but for now they still make me smile, kind of.

ha ha ha?

Thanksgiving 2008

This year I am thankful for...

1.The weather we have been having lately

2.Sawyer

3.My j-o-b

4.My sister

5.My brother

6.Sydney

7.Zach

8.Lovey

9.Sleep

10.Weekends off

11.Bamboozle line up for next year

12.Gas prices going down

13.The new Dear and The Headlights

14.Seeing PBC and BC at Jillians

15.My birthday

16.Plaid/flannel

17.Oliver

18.My parents

19.Being 21

20.All the laughter

new favorite

I cannot get enough of these guys. I've been listening to "Drunk Like Bible Times" a lot. I've also been listening to christmas music and Modern Life Is War. I'm a weirdo.

whats your number?

Christmas is fast approaching and the excitement I feel is getting more and more out of control with every house in my neighborhood that puts up their lights early. To make matters even worse I know have a seriously amazing job that allows me to spoil the shit out of everyone I love and a brand new nephew to love and a Bunny coming to visit. I might just throw up all over myself if anything else happens. I am pretty sure I want to make Christmas cards and I am going to be diving head first into every single Christmas activity Las Vegas has to offer. There is a Christmas Parade in Boulder City and the live Nativity and my church will be celebrating 35 years of Christmas. Oh Em Gee!

Also, this year I will be going to Disneyland with my BFF

I've never been during the holidays and I cannot wait. Its going to be AWESOME.

Oh, that did it. Excitement overload.

Basically...

christmas list...

This is what I have so far, expect several updates...

he is a babe

I spent most of my weekend with Mr. Heit, who has a rather large Man-crush on...

Eddie Vedder

and Tom Brady

These are my Girl-crushes...




































zooey deschanel























scarlett johansson

atleast we tried

our best night

Snuggling and tickle fights and laughing and that thing where I lay in my spot and he kisses the top of my head and I melt a little

a year ago...

this was my life

Screech was still alive and sneezing all over my freshly washed sheets.

I hung out with these girls all the time and took naps at that apartment on that mattress and we'd eat soup and breadsticks and laugh and stay up late.

I had several giggle fits a night.

I was happier than I had ever been up to that point.

This kid and I really liked eachother and I didn't forget his birthday.

This little man did not exist.

I was not 21!

hopelessly hopeful

[But, despite the truth that I know I find it hard to let go and give up on you, seems I love the things you do, like the meaner you treat me the more eager I am to persist with this heartbreak and running around and I think that I know things may never change I'm still hoping one day I might hear you say I make you feel a way you've never felt before and I'm all you need and that you never want more and we'll say all of the right things without a clue and you'll be the one for me and me the one for you]

I have been sleeping a lot more this week. I blame daylight savings and the weather. I went out to dinner last night, went home and was knocked out asleep by 8:30. Does anyone else think this is excessive? Especially when if I could, I'd stay home and sleep all day. I have a very bad addiction to sleep. Feel free to nominate me for Intervention, I promise I'll go get help.

In other news, my nephew is perfect. Oh, you didn't know? Here I'll show you...

See, I told you! I just want to squeeze him! I was being a Debbie Downer a few days ago and my sister said "Don't be depressed. Sawyer loves you, nothing else matters" and I proceeded to tear up and kick myself for worrying about stupid little things. Isn't he just too cute?

brings

http://www.cnn.com/2008/POLITICS/11/04/obama.transcript/index.html

...tears to my eyes

Election '08

Bunny...

Daydreamer, sittin’ on the seat, soaking up the sun. He is a Real lover, makin’ up the past and feeling up his girl like he’s never felt her figure before.A jaw dropper, looks good when he when he walks, he is the subject of their talk. He would be hard to chase, but good to catch and he could change the world with his hands behind his back, Oh…You can find him sittin’ on your doorstep, waiting for the surprise. It will feel like he’s been there for hours and you can tell that he’ll be there for life. Daydreamer, with eyes that make you melt, he lends his coat for shelter because he’s there for you when he shouldn’t be but he stays all the same, waits for you and then sees you through. There’s no way I could describe him, all I say is, just what I’m hoping for but I will find him sittin’ on my doorstep, waiting for the surprise. It will feel like he’s been there for hours and I can tell he’ll be there for life, and I can tell he’ll be there for life...

little man

this scares me. he looks like a grown up, and so intense.he is only a week old! i didnt see him for almost a week and when i went back to my sisters he was tracking better and he weighed more. i dont want him to grow up, i want him to stay little and sweet forever. i am so afraid of the days or back-talking or when he hates the world and doesnt want any sort of affection. i will love him and snuggle him and kiss him till he is a grown ass man, buhleedat i will.



p.s.
he is such a babe, he is gonna grow up to break some hearts.

typical sunday night

face paint,$10

freaking my family out, priceless

walking down memory lane

what in de hell?

List take 2!

I am giving this another shot...


In honor of Halloween...