Forgive me for going MIA on this blog.

I've been busy....Okay not really.

The trip to NY for Michael and the band ended early, in Colorado. He is homesafe and the band is working on getting some westcoast shows to save themselves and their loved ones from anymore stress.

Tomorrow we are celebrating my nephews 2nd birthday. I cannot believe he will be two next week, his real birthday is on Wednesday but everyone is going out of town next week so we will be celebrating on Saturday. My sister is great hostess and came up with a great theme, great menu and guest list. Fun will be had by all! And then it is off to DISNEYLAND! Sydney, Michael and myself will be enjoying Halloween time at Disneyland and California Adventures! I cannot wait and will have a full report of our costumes, everything we ate and all the fun as soon as we get back.

And of course because blogs are no fun without pictures here is my little man, my heart (almost) 2 years ago....

and here he is now...

On a scale of 1-10

1.How bad do I want to punch some people in the face?
10 (sometimes higher)

2.How much do I want the perfect heavy fringe that won't grow out in a week and sit in my eyeballs?
8/9

3.How much do I love my crazy family?
10 (sometimes higher)

4.How badly do I need to get serious about saving money?
9/10

5.How lame is this post?
you decide...

Crazy, Crazy, Crazy...

This past few weeks have been....crazy.

I saw Coheed&Cambria for the 2nd time this year, and twice in 1 day! It was the best day! They played a mini acoustic show at Zia Records and signed merch for their adoring fans and I could have cried over how extremly polite, humble and overall genuinely nice they all were. Big smiles, thank you's and a good vibe. Then they played the Joint at The Hardrock Hotel and it was everything it always is, AMAZING. It was major (thanks Rachel Zoe)

Tonight I will be checking something off my bucket list...

Me and this guy and Michael got a date tonight.

It is major.

what can I say?

Hey! Is this houndstooth?

update?

blargh.

I feel...

if we are facebook friends

you know how crazy i am.

Listening to Counting Crows

The pictures from disneyland are still on my camera and not uploaded.

Forgive me.

I've been a little down in the dumps lately. Lots of self doubt and feeling lost, confused, overwhelmed. I promise I am trying to shake it off(like a polaroid picture).

Stay posted...

half hearted

I still have not uploaded the pictures from the Dland vacation.

I am lazy, didnt you know?

I spent some time with my family this week, it was fun. I forgot how much I like the people I am related to. (Sydney is of course family)

I am trying to come up with a plan, find a path, keep going...

keep your fingers crossed for me.

This is what I am thinking about today...

This is how Michael and I remember eachother. Just Like this

What happened to this baby? Where did he go? He is too big now.

Bridget came home. I missed her, hopefully I can see her soon.

I thought this was funny and then I looked at it a little too long and now I don't think it is funny anymore


what is on your brain?

stuck in my head

These changed me, influenced me and stuck with me.

(not in any order)

1.Coheed and Cambria-Time Consumer
Sydney liked them first, I couldn't get into it so we drove to California and saw them in a little venue and everything changed and I bought Secondstage Turbine Blade and listened to this song on repeat, repeat, repeat. From that show on they have been my favorite band and their albums good or bad have always been on my shelf and in my cd player. I will never give up on them, especially when they are putting out stuff like YOBR and still putting on amazing shows.
2..No Doubt-Spiderwebs
My sister used to dress me up like Gwen Stefani. Megan influenced me in a lot of ways, music was a big one. She turned me on to punk, emo, indie, hip hop. This album reminds me of being young and wanting to be her, stealing her clothes and driving her crazy.
3. Polar Bear Club-Convinced I'm Wrong
This song describes how I felt all the time until I met Michael, and even after I did. It is everything I thought and felt for a few years ago.
4.Taking Back Sunday-Your Own Disaster
Summer between freshman and sophomore year. Sad, dramatic and heavy. I'm surprised I made it out alive.
5.Against Me!-Walking Is Still Honest
Megan played this for me in her jetta on one of our Saturday shopping sprees and I wanted to be punk rock all over again. Listening to this song now makes me sad, I wish the band could go back and do this again but I'm glad for the albums I have and still enjoy.
6.Thursday-Autobiography Of A Nation
The first time I saw this band live was in a tiny club across from UNLV that is unfortunately no longer open. I shook the lead singers hand before they went on and by the end of the show I was soaked with sweat, my legs were covered in bruises and the windows of the club were completely fogged. They played this song and I thought the crowd was going to crush me but I couldn't stop singing along and throwing my hands in the air. It was amazing.
7.Michelle Shocked-Anchorage
I remember when my dad first got the CD version of this album and we listened to it in our kitchen and I fell in love with every single song. This being on the list is definitely my dads influence, he has always had such great eclectic taste in music.
8.Dashboard Confessional-The Brilliant Dance
I can't describe this one without sounding like my 16year old broken emo self but that's where my brain always goes. Every time this song comes on it brings memories to the forefront of my mind that are dark and sad but this album turned my ears in a completely different direction and I started reading books like The Perks Of Being A Wall Flower and writing in my journal more.
9.NSYNC-Tearin' Up My Heart
I like pop music and this is probably why. Hearing this song I am instantly 12 again and screaming at the top of my lungs at their first concert in town.

I won't do 10 and there is way more than 9.

Brudda and sista

So I colored my hair but I don't have any pictures. The jury is still out on it. I think Michael and I look related now and that is not cute.

We are planning a trip to Disneyland, I cannot wait!

I wish I had more to tell you.

Well I love that hair, long an' black, hangin' down to the middle of your back

Don't cut it off whatever you do,I need it to run my fingers through 'cause you're my baby, you're my sugar.

My brain is stuck in the summer of 07

I have a letter in an old joural in the closet of my new house that is addressed to you, I miss you sometimes.

Copy Cat

Friday Favorites (as stolen from my sister and her blog)

Because it is my Monday and almost my birthday and I have always copied my sister



this picture, always makes me giggle.


this dude and I are bffs


my bike


these shoes

True or false, pictures make an entry better?

We celebrated the life of my wonderful Nana this past saturday. It was a beautiful (little on the warm side) sunny day. Nana was always a really good cook, so in honor of her and her food everyone made a recipe of hers. My sister and I volunteered to do the sweets, I made her famous carrot cake (and somehow got a piece of paper from the butter in the frosting, real classy). My sister made her chocolate chip cookies, they got gobbled up. It was a good day, sad but good. Here are some pictures...















No explanation...













**true

Chewing out my heart

Sad, sad week.

Lots of eating and talking and laying around.

I'm good at all of that.


I have so much I want to say but no words.

Oh effing well.

birthday wishlist 2010

It's almost that time...

I would like the following for the 23rd (eeeeek) birthday









not included in list=
tinted windows, a coheed and cambria decal for my car, money, love and adult bevvies.

Update:

I've been....

buying cars

being rockstars, playing house of blues.

going on dates

hanging out with Sawyer

camping

So I bought a car, we went camping, Michael played house of blues, we went on a date and lots of other exciting events. Thats all.

and this is...

christmas..i think either way i like this picture cause i was still blonde and could trick people into think the baby in my lap was mine and not my sisters, is that weird? I don't care.

Debbie Downer...(wamp wamp wamp)

I still have not uploaded the pictures from...
a.Christmas
b.New Years
c.Michaels birthday..

I am a slacker.

It is rainy today just like yesterday, it is awesome. I am a fan of rainy days, a big one. In my office we have big big windows so right now I am looking at out the district, the mountains and of course the dark clouds. Can you guess where I work? Like you don't already know? I can also see the top of a coworkers head, I don't mind though.


This post had no point, oh well. It is all hoops*.

What else can I tell you? I've been sad lately but that's not fun news. Michael went to San Diego. A movie I was disappointed in one a golden globe, another one I hadnt heard of did too but it's not playing here so I can't say whether I am disappointed or not. I am on the verge of buying a new cell phone, new plan, new everything. I colored my hair but its faded and sad and I think a little green on the ends, that's all I have to say about that.

I got nothing else and this post sucks because it is...
a.boring
b.picture-less
c.depressing?


it's still all hoops*, right?




*-inside joke between the only other person to read this and myself.

money, money, money

Michael has a show tonight and the 28th and then a metal festival in Roswell, NM in April and then another one in July in Queens, NY. Things were supposed to calm down after this month, I was counting on a little peace and quiet but they just keep getting more and more hectic for me and more and more exciting for him.

"I am a worrier, thats why my friends call me Whiskers..."





I am trying to be excited, stop worrying and focus on living life this year. Gotta stay posi, right?

Shout outz

This little dude is the best, like the Tina Turner song...




You're simply the best, better than all the rest.Better than anyone, anyone I've ever met I'm stuck on your heart, I hang on every word you say. Tear us apart no, no, baby, I would rather be dead

A birthday...

Michael is 23 today.

Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday!

(i love him)

2nd post because my brain is heavy

I am listening to imogen heap and having a mini panic attack. I read through all the letters I had tucked away in clear protective sheets in my binder the other night, laughing and crying a little bit. I feel am immense sense of guilt and grief over all of this, dramatic I know. It was an idea and it was so very good on paper, so romantic.

Reality is not romantic.

Reality is full of changes and excuses and Michael Wild, reality can be beautiful but also very complicated and messy.

Love letters are not complicated. Ideas are not messy.

Ideas fit nicely into plastic protective sleeves and stay perfectly intact and ready to remind me, bring me back to a different time. Ideas don't ask me to explain, make eye contact and admit anything.

Ideas are not messy.

I know the hint was caught after a year plus of not writing, not responding but now, in just a few days there will be an actual face and body and eyes to look at, make contact with and I don't know if I am ready for all that. Am I making sense? I am overreacting and more than willing to admit that but I feel weird, anxious, panicked. We'll see that happens I guess.

No room in there for knowledge

I have lyrics running through my head tonight, and movies, all these movie quotes..

to start..

"Could we fix you if you broke? And is your punch line just a joke?" ....."I know that it's complicated but I'm a loser in love so baby raise a glass to mend all the broken hearts of all my wrecked up friends"

or...

"With the right paint, The right shades, The right frames, This could really work..."

and...

"I love that when I breathe you in you smell like cake batter. And I love that you have this insane way of talking in circles that makes perfect sense. "

this too...
"When was the last time you were decently kissed? I mean, truly, truly, good and kissed?"

"Oh come on. Oh, there he goes off to his room to write that hit song "Alone in my principles."


what are you thinking about?

Top 9 of 2009 (not in order)

Top 9 Highs:
9. Sawyers 1st birthday
8. Going to Oregon
7. Moving out
6. Getting my 3rd tattoo
5. All the long nights of laughing and drinking
4. Disneyland on for my birthday
3. My rings/ Michaels ring
2. Spending time with my family and friends
1. Staying with and being so madly in love with Michael



Top 9 Songs:
9. Back to Oregon- Broadway Calls
8. I Know- Dear and The Headlights
7. Convinced I'm Wrong- Polar Bear Club
6. Happiness By The Kilowatt- City and Colour
5. Manhattan- Kings of Leon
4. One Love- Justin Bieber
3. Revelations End- Sicocis
2. Bad Romance- Lady Gaga
1. Sex On Fire-Kings of Leon



Top 9 Movies:
9. Star Trek
8. Up
7. Terminator Salvation
6. Angels and Demons
5. Paranormal Activity
4. Nine
3. The Hangover
2. Julie and Julia
1. District 9


Top 9 places we ate:
9. Raising Canes
8. At Home
7. Grand Lux Cafe
6. Carluccio's
5. Yardhouse
4. Napoli's
3. Lucielles
2. Full Sail Brewery
1. Red Robin


Top 5 Lows:
5. Losing my job
4. Michael losing his job the same day I lost mine
3. Any and all drama and/or stress
2. Moving out and losing my cat
1. My dad being sick

Happy New Year